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About Me Member Lurker IcesplendorFemale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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just some personal stuff...

Mon Oct 12, 2009, 7:11 PM
Where am I right now? I'm in a triple dorm room with my two other roommates at UC Berkeley, Unit 3 Residence Hall complex. I am a first-year chemical engineering student...though after going through four hour chem labs, I wonder if this is the type of thing I want to be doing for the rest of my life. Made me wonder if maybe I want to switch to computer science. Programming, coding, having something beautiful come out in the end...that was awesome when I took a CS course in high school. But for now, I'll wait it out a bit and see if chemE takes to me.

May I also mention...I had the hardest time deciding whether to come here to Cal or head off to UCLA instead. With Berkeley's reputation for being hardass, myself not wanting to work freakishly hard after reaching my limit in high school, seeing Berkeley's ghetto-ness, sometimes I feel like it would have been smarter to take the easier path. SoCal! Though I suppose there's no use looking back now.

Have I died on dA? Not quite...I've actually been obsessively checking dA nearly every day--each time I go online. Or at least...I did for years, up until a few weeks ago. My messages have started to pile...never reached this high of a number before. I still love art just as much as before. I just haven't had the time to create my own, lately.

My senior year of high school came and went. It was amazing. Formed some great memories. My summer...in the beginning was a disappointment. I applied to around 5 internships and/or jobs, went to interviews, and in the end got nothing. Instead, looking for some purpose to occupy my time, I applied for Youth for Asian Theater (YFAT), was accepted, and unexpectedly gained the best summer of my life thus far. Someone fell in love with me, and I think I fell in love with him...But we go to different universities. Before we even began, we already knew we would end, mutually agreed we would end. We promised we would remain friends even after our halcyon days vanished. I really hope we do...so far, we're still smiling.
I wonder if this is a happy ending. Maybe I won't call it an ending.
This has been kept somewhat secret amongst my friends. Perhaps some of them will happen upon my deviantART page and confirm their suspicions, haha...
I also went to Anime Expo before all this happened. My friend and I had matching cosplays: Souseiseki/Suiseiseki from Rozen Maiden and Arietta/Anise from Tales of the Abyss => myself/her. I'm always the relatively masculine character who dies. Also, we did some loli on the side. Our own sewn cosplays. It was my first anime convention and full of awesome. Felt like another world or a dream. ><

I could type lots more, but I have chemistry homework, a second midterm this Friday. *sigh* And I suppose that this is unnecessary, random babble in any case.

I don't know if I'll ever be as active on dA as I was in the past, but know that I'll still be around. Lurking. Still appreciating the art that appears here every day. Thank you so much to those of you who saw enough worth in me to follow my page or comment on my submissions. Your support has honestly helped me reach the level of artistry I now possess, however much or little that may be. I would have loved to continue developing my skills consciously, but...for better or for worse, my life placed other pursuits above drawing.

Thank you sincerely for your kindness.

not goodbye.
still alive. <3

  • Mood: Yearning

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  • Interests: drawing, anime, drawing anime
  • Favourite band or musician: Yuki Kajiura, Ali Project
  • Favourite genre of music: "other"
  • Operating System: Windows XP
  • Favourite game: Klonoa 2: Lunatea's Veil
  • Tools of the Trade: Sakura Micron pen, Crayola colored pencils, Graphire3 tablet, SAI PaintTool, Photoshop

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:iconwackypenguin:
OMG CHUR THAT PERSON FROM SCHOOL THAT ..
eeer...
that...
eeer
i dunno wat chu do i saw chur art b4 ._.
*watches*

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will you be my fwend?

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:iconicesplendor:
Wow, you've seen my stuff around? Math Club, Chan's room (338). How did you find me here? It's always fun to meet a fellow Lowellite on dA. ^^ When I come visit, maybe we could meet up if you don't think it's creepy? xD
I've graduated btw, but I'm still close by--first year at UC Berkeley.

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:iconwackypenguin:
yeah :3
i found chu here...
by
erm...
stalking other lowellites 030
*shot*
i found one piece in the journalism room... i was in there cuz i wanted to turn in a portfolio for illustrator

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:iconmystic-rose-club:
Dear member, the Mystic-Rose-Club has gone through "certain" changes, please check into the club and see them. Also if you don't mind please update your journal so our new icon can take place if it hasn't.

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:iconpin-a-nat:
woww, you have such nice art! :O
We should draw together on the bus!
Can't wait for AX eeee x3
:icondarkness-love:
aawwwww nice galery :love:

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muahaha ÒwÓ

wanna a sub
read this contest [link]
:icontheriotscenexhw:
amo tu galeria!!! en watchers!
:iconbananagrenadex4:
hey! it's sophia! lilium bell's junior friend haha cya 'round school! AX 09 wooo!!!im also super excited for Baby the Stars Shine Bright! btw, ur art is hecka coool!XDD

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:iconicesplendor:
Thanks! How did you find me? Through Bell? It's cool that you have a dA account. =]

I don't post much here anymore. >___< I still hang around and stalk people/artists, though.

Yes, Baby the Stars Shine Bright. I can't wait to step into that store. *__*

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:iconbananagrenadex4:
actually i've seen u comment on bell's sometimes haha XD i confirmed it was you by facebook lol

school has consumed my soul so i also dont post as much X[

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